Food tortured me from youth until I was 73 years old. It took me thirty years to make Step One.
One day, three different Twelve Step friends suggested I write what I wanted from OA. Three different people on the same day? Sounds like a message from my Higher Power, whom I call Beloved. Here is what I wrote:
- I want even more love from you, my Beloved, more confidence, more trust, and reliance; I want you to initiate my recovery, as you always do.
- I want to rely on you and not my pride; I want to reach instinctively to humility and not to pride or self-hate, the roots of my white-knuckling.
- I want your will.
- I want to share my experience, strength, and hope.
- I want OA friends and an end to isolation.
- I want to awaken to our love.
- More than anything I want you, my Beloved. You are the desire of my heart.
- I want every barrier between us removed. All these desires of my heart, I know you will give me. They are your desires as much as mine.
Not long after writing this list I had a spiritual awakening, which has given me recovery.
— Karl Y.
Source: OA Lifeline
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